I lied in my personal statement and said i'd read Ayn Rand's Atlas Shrugged and managed to blag my way through a ten minute talk about it with my personal tutor. This week i stopped it gathering dust on my bedroom floor and delved into the pages.

I actually really like this book.

It's made me want to study Philosophy. Because i seriously find it all fascinating.

I'm not only just realising that i'm entirely open to persuasion, i think i like being persuaded to think differently.

It's exciting.
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I have a Maths exam and i would really rather stay in bed and sulk about the fact i need to put my car up for sale this week.

I'm going to miss Effie dearly.
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My cousin is infact awesome.

Our mother's suck for keeping us away from each other for so long.

I'm glad i'll be living close to her for a while.

And not just so that my hair keeps getting dyed funky colours.
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I love my Auntie very much.

But my idea of living with her was an absolutely idiotic one.

I can't stand the shouting. Or the mess. Or the shower that doesn't work. Or the disorganisiation.

And most of all. I felt scared. Scared to be in North London.

And i mean...what the hell?

I was born there. I mostly grew up there.

And i love London.

Only i love the centre. I love the heart of the city.

I love the Museums, Theatres, Covent Garden, Camden, Oxford Street and Regents Street.

I love the rich London with it's big elegant town houses and beautifully kept parks.

The North London where i grew up, where Nika lives...it's not always a nice place...and most of the time it doesn't even pretend to be.

I guess it took a weekend of contemplating living there to remind me that i need all the security i can get right now, and living there offers me none.

I'm not a Londoner anymore. I'm a nomad.
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My Ma has yet again proved to be nicer than i give her credit for.

And i guess i don't know how i feel about that.

Guilty?

Probably.
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I feel slightly more organised after half term, and even though i have two papers due in approximately 12 days, i'm not panicked.

Maybe because i know that when push comes to shove, i don't need a distinction in these subjects...and i can pump out a 1500 word essay in a day if i have to.

I'm going to stay behind every day this week...or nearly every day, because i do need to get my car cleaned and on autotrader...and i do need to list everything i've yet again failed to list on ebay.

Money is always an issue.
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We're changing the Costa Rica holiday to Haldiriki, which is fine by me because i've always wanted to go to mainland Greece and this is my chance...i do hope they realise i'm going to be dragging them into caves and a trip to Athens or Thessaloniki is a must. Or both!
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I need some new boots. Black leather. And a black winter coat with fur on the hood.
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I don't think i have any more thoughts clogging up my brain right now, except the one that's telling me that dripping water from my hair onto my laptop is probably not a good idea...and i really should get dressed :-)