Very tired at the moment - considering forcing myself to have an early night. 4.30am wake ups do nothing good for me.

Saw Eclipse at the weekend - was absolutely brilliant - but then i am in love with the books, so that's what you'd expect really.

Also been to see Killers - absolutely crap - worst movie i've seen in a long time. And Get Him to the Greek - not so bad - quite funny really.

Been trying to make use of my cinema pass as you can tell - no point paying money each month and not using them is there?!

Going to see Predators tomorrow after the gym - actually really looking forward to it - haven't seen a good action/horror in a while and they're totally my cup of tea.

Gym time is starting to work out - i'm taking it slow and increasing my time each visit and i know i'll get there.

Next step is to plan out my meals, which will be much easier when i'm in my new place.

Watching Dawsons Creek reruns and reading fanfiction - too tired to do anything else. (I dislike Dawson immensely...Pacey is my dude)

Though surprisingly i'm getting quite a bit done this week - finally managed to redo all my files so i'm financially organised - did my washing and organised my catalogue returns - watched everything left on the sky box - added a bunch of stuff to ebay - filled in my new filofax insert and started to go through stuff, determining what to sell and what to keep.

Decided that as much as i love my stuff, it's time to do a complete sort through - add it all to ebay and even do a carboot sale. I'm only keeping the stuff that i really really want - which will probably still be a shed load of stuff - but any money i make will come in handy and it's less to worry about during all my up coming moves.

I'm excited to have a clear out - i absolutely love organising things - how ocd is that.

Prodigy tickets came through the post the other day - super excited about going - only two and a bit weeks to go! Must make sure i book our taxi home or else we'l be stranded in Milton Keynes.

Must plan a trip to Ikea for just after pay day too - got my Ikea family card through the post - discounts!

Gave my auntie a call today - i'm forever forgetting to ring people back but i finally remembered and we ended up talking for over an hour - was actually really nice.

Me and Anika have always got on really well, always laughing and joking when we get together, probably because there's only ten years between us, and i guess we have a lot of things in common.

Early serious relationships - smart girls who waste their intelligence - depressive tendancies and a no nonsense attitude but super friendly dispositions. Not to mention being pretty but perpetually overweight. Hmph. Maybe it runs in the family.

I miss our friendship - i miss my family.

It'l be nice to be back in London for a while (hopefully). It'l give me a chance to get closer to Lorna & Daniel, but also re-establish my relationships with my family, who i don't see anywhere near often enough.

God i'm drivilling aren't i.

Maybe i should come back when i've got my head screwed on and i actually know what i'm feeling.

I made a list today, of all the reasons why i'll be happier in 12 months. Sort of like setting myself tasks and hoping i won't fail.

Maybe next time i'll put them on here. A permanent reminder of what life can be like if i let it.