2010-03-31 @ 8:09 p.m.
Disabled
Is there a way to find out if i have it?
I mean...i do some pretty strange things sometimes and i have awful compulsions to make sure everything looks perfect in my room.
Sometimes i stand there for nearly half an hour, moving around in a circle inspecting everything and making miniscule changes.
And i put everything in order, even my socks...which are crazy colours, but they have to be neatly stacked...and the wardrobe has to be colour coded...and my wrapping paper is in order of sex and age...okay i'm not really sure any of this is normal now that i think about it.
But how do you define normal?
I don't mind if other peoples stuff is disorganised and dirty...but mine has to look exactly how i picture it should in my mind...i get a little bit restless and stressed when it isn't.
Okay now i'm convinced i have some form of OCD....can you have mild OCD?
*sighs*
God, and i thought worrying about the possibility of being Bipolar was scary enough.
Imagine that...a chick with OCD and Bipolar disorder.
That's just a recipe for disaster if ever i saw one.
Sounds a little bit too much like me for comfort though.
They really shouldn't send me on disability awareness courses.
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