Not really thinking i'd get a reply cause it usually takes him so long. I don't mind though as they're always worth it.

But i figured it was worth a go considering i don't live all that far from him anymore.

And i just checked my mail and can honestly say i was pleasantly surprised to see two emails from him waiting for me.

Saying he wants to meet up tonight after my suggestion that we hang out again. I do love our chats and honestly went to hit reply and tell him to get his butt round here.

And then i remembered that i'm knackered, since i've been up since 4.30am. My room's in total chaos. I need to shave and pluck my eyebrows and do all manor of grooming things to look half way respectable right now.

So maybe it's not a great idea. But it makes me so happy to think i haven't lost all the people i've trusted so deeply with my friendship.

So i'll text him tomorrow when i'm feeling a bit more alive. And hope that we can spend some time together soon.

I've missed him. I really have. Howie gets it. I think he honestly gets me.

Nextdoor have a baby that just wont stop crying. I'm considering kidnapping it and leaving it a few streets away.

Such a kind hearted soul.

It did occur to me that i might not want Howie to see me all fat and blubbery and the like.

But then i figured. He likes me for 'me'. We talk through email and over the phone more than anything these days.

And we're not compatible romanticly. We tried that once. He's a great friend. And friends don't care what size their friends are...unless they're concerned for their health. In which case it's sweet.

And i shouldn't be giving a flying fuck what other people think of my looks. That's all down to me.

Me and my brother snuck into Gram's house today and moved all her things around...turning pictures to face the wall and moving her teddys. Totally juvenile but so worth it.

I'm going to go sleep now. So tired. So much to do and so much to think about.