2010-08-22 @ 7:09 p.m.
Summery Sunday
Beautiful weather. Shame my Ma turned into a banshee bitch from hell after the movies.
I decided i've gotta let go of the OCD a little. Just in small ways.
Help me de-stress. Help me have less to worry about. Less to do.
I'm not going to write down a list of all the music, movies and books i have.
I've been doing it for i don't know how long and it just struck me today as sort of utterly pointless.
I'm the only one that needs to know and i already do. My memory's not that shite.
So no more cataloging my possessions.
It's a small thing. But it's a step in the right direction.
I popped in to see Lynn at work this arvo...twas nice too. Got to air some things out.
I told her about my uncle and my mum.
She just said 'That's horrific.'...to which i responded...'It's just a little ripple in my pool full of waves, think of my real father bullying me over stretch marks on my hips at 12 and the man i called Dad from the age of 2 speaking to me in the same manner as my uncle...it's just my life. I'm getting used to it. It sucks and i can't forgive them, i can't ever move past it once they go there. But it's just life'.
She said they don't know me and they don't know how to hurt me so they go for the obvious. They go for my size.
It's not forgivable. Under any circumstances. It's just not okay.
They should have at least got to know me properly before they tried insulting me...only joshing...i think.
It's not really my fault i become such a mystery. It really isn't.
<<ghosts []the mist>>
A shit load of contradictions, wrapped up neatly, with a nice pretty bow.
Reading. Writing. Zoos & Animal Parks. Bowling. Coffee Ice-cream. Blues Rock/Alternative/Indie Music. Fallen Angels. Wild Flowers. Pastrami. Vanilla Coke. Autumn. Harry Potter. Driving. Turquoise. Southern Comfort. Aviators. Semolina. Christmas. Museums. Dream Catchers. Roller Coasters. Tattoos. Winter Cider. Philosophy. Vintage Shops. Night time. Chinese Lanterns. Hoop earrings. Sci-Fi. Flowery Skirts. Mythical Creatures. Weeping Willows. Castles. Yankee Candles. Rainy Mornings. Ballet Pumps. Baking. Art Galleries. Long pendants. Quills and Ink. Spiced Rum. Libraries. Sleeping. Converse. Forests. Banana Milk. Venetian Masks. Poetry. Fireworks. US License Plates. Graveyards. Quotes. White Chocolate. Cats. Stars. Scrap Books. Shopping. Metallic Nail Varnish. Keepsakes. Phoenixes. Golden Grahams. Horror Movies. Tea (Esp. Rose Earl Grey). Lemonade Shower Gel. Travelling. Tragic Love. Piercings. Old Book & New Sponge Smells. Storms. Witty People. Cherries. Colourful Socks. American Dramas. Airports. Aston Martins. Hazelnut Lattes. Cowboys. Skeleton Keys. Cajun Chicken. Ivy. Dreams. Cinnamon Waffles. Old London. French Cheese. Trilby Hats. Antiques. Colourful Plasters. Postcards. Colourful paperclips. Bangles. Marvel & DC Comics. Key rings. Notebooks.
Dishonesty. Racism. Narrow-Mindedness. Idiocy. Unwarranted Violence. Neglective Parents. Bullying. Unearned Respect. Betrayal. Extreme Heat. Bright Lights. Sickness. Mushrooms & Olives. Alarm Clocks. Unfounded Jealousy. South African Accents. Celebrity Biographies. Suffocating Presences. Restrictions. Superficial people. Game playing. Routines.
Robert Frost Leather Bound Journal.
Small Vinyl Book Ends.
Astro Star Lamp.
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